Questions

If we are supposed to live for today,
doesn't it make sense that you stay?

If you should yearn, and long, and desire,
how long do you do it until you tire?

If this feels so good and so right,
why am I again alone tonight?

is it meant that we think it so through?
testing the water instead of jumping in the pool?

I can read your thoughts, see your struggle,
same as mine, analyzing the same hurdle...

isn't it going to come to the decision that's made?
what's the use of tests, defiance and grade?

If Time is the one thing we can't have back,
let's take the New and let go of the Wreck!

If Time is the one thing we can't have back,
our Hearts are the only things left to check...

It's a leap of Faith: do we dare??
it's to our Hearts we need to be fair...

My indian name: Heavenflower, you're Tigerspaw...
It's about that Love: real, strong, beautifully raw.

So, no use in all the struggle, the analyzing, the debate:
Inevitably we're the fish and Love, the bait.
The Hearts can only win; the spirits, elevate...
How much more Time is there to waste?

an obstacle overcome, a battle won!
such a day deserves a song!
thought the body would crumble,
thought the head would shut down.
but we are all God's greatest ensemble!
who doubts that deserves a frown.

so, I've made it and with elegance!
just giving possitivity a chance.
and now here I am: happy and proud!
I won and now I can shout it out:

I made it to shore!
I'm good, I'm strong, I can deliver!
Life is not a stormy sea anymore,
It is just a river...

One by one the Pillars do fall:
can't change Life's pace.
there's always someone to call
when there's a problem to face.

So, don't you dare forget:
I'm here, and when I'm not,
I'll leave you all set
just in case you forgot.

See, it's like a domino game,
like the 7-waves rule:
suffering is not a shame,
who doesn't feel is the fool.

So, better to sit back, not fight.
learn the lessons and go straight on.
I don't mean to sound light:
it's the best thing to focus on.

I'm here if you need a shoulder,
you know that I'll wait.
things happen when you get older...
I'll hold you if you're afraid.

"you can only let go of what you hold"
said a very wise man I follow...
let the pain in, feel it: be bold!
it's worst to try and swallow...

another wise woman said:
the best help is knowing someone's there.
so know, please, I still care:
through fear, happiness and dread.

                                Take my hand if you need it: it is stretched out.
                                to help you, if you wish, is all what this is about.

Hope

The Sun is just hiding behind the clouds:
inevitably it will come out!
then the rain will have stopped
and the baggage will be dropped...

Hope is in sight,
Angel always by my side.
Help whenever I prayed.
Hope struggled but stayed!

                          Soon comes a brighter day!

The Eyes

the eyes don't wanna see...
don't like what there is...
is this how I'm gonna be?
would the solution be a kiss?

the eyes don't like what they see...
they hurt and wanna be shut...
the feelings are all free...
lady, bitch, criminal, slut...

the eyes just wanna dream...
good times elsewhere,
water, sand and sunscreen...
can't afford to be there...

so the eyes go against the sight
warning me of what's not right
life seems an unending fight,
life seems made of only black and white...

Pandora's Box

Now Pandora's Box is open and all flew out:
I could cry, I could laugh, I could scream and shout.
I could close up, shield up and stay inside.
I'd rather be alone: shut up and hide!

the meaner Goddesses were women, the Furies.
they persecuted and killed who did a wrong
they were merciless cause that was their duty
when they come over me it's not enough to sing a song.

I could destroy, I could torture, I could kill
I lose all compassion, all distraction and good will.
what's to calm such a mighty force?
what's to stop me from screaming till I'm hoarse?

Pandora's Box: was there a way to shut it?
I can't recall how that story came to an end...
I can't recall...but I'm sure I've heard it...
Hope I'll soon be turning a bend...

zum Geburtstag

Als du mein Leben betreten hast:
Alarm! Alarm! Zu gut um Wahr zu sein!
Unglaublich, dass es so perfekt passt!
Mein Herz ist offen: komm ruhig rein!

The Question

The Question is really
is it worth to wait?
do I trust Fate?
do I give in completely?

the Question is, for real,
is it worth the longing?
the sadness and the wanting?
should I learn to deal?

the Question, to rephrase,
is if I hold on patiently.
Not thinking, as usual, carefully
not analysing in any case.

the answer, I should tell,
surprised out of me the living Hell!
and it is as simple as this:
it is worth waiting for you kiss.

Feelings

What to do about the storm?
feelings flooding me: that's new.
Isn't there supposed to be an alarm, a horn?
I'm not blocking, I'm feeling but what to do?

The wave comes and leaves me tired.
I can't do this, gonna get fired!
The wave goes and I have survived
and never cheated, retreated or lied.

Feelings are so intense, so strong and real.
No wonder I blocked the way I feel!
Now the heart is open to let them in and out
isn't that what life is all about?

I'll love, I'll laugh, I'll really cry.
Learn to deal with comings and goodbyes.
this way I'll truly be me.
is there a better way to be?

                                          Wish me luck and fingers crossed!
                                          The dice have been tossed!

It's cold

When you're gone, I'm cold.
I freeze, I shiver, I shake.
I feel my body getting old
I go to sleep and don't wanna wake.

I avoid stereotypes, nevertheless,
when you're there, all is light,
all is harmony, joy and gentleness
All is warm and tall and wide.

When you're gone, it's true!,
it's like you take a part of me.
Lyrics gone, hear only melody
and I feel like such a fool.

Time flies by, I know:
you'll be back in no time!
then you'll again have to go
will give me new reason to rhyme.

So, just for your information,
this is not criticism or accusation,
just thought to write this down:
won't you come?? It's freezing now!

A short one

Alas, the full moon still dies and grows,
the plants bloom, the river flows!
Means the world is still spinning
so, soon, instead of crying, grinning!

Sunflower

A lovely Sunflower that is me
prettier than a plant, stronger than a tree.
I look up at the sun
and follow it around.

It's fire is what I need
like water, earth and the air that I breath.
with the elements with me
I'm safe and sound.

If one fails me, though,
I miss it: that much I know.
Even if I try to avoid it, there's no use:
my head hangs low.

So a Sunflower, that's me:
there's not much else I need to be.
Just take what I need and
feed every other bee.

and spread beauty and light
for the world to see.